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The Weight
03:25
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Running got old
Just when I thought I was comfortable, drama
My legs tremble
And it's a testament to my health to be on them
The weight is nothing new
Just trying to see it through
Back to a me that you're used to
I'm forgetful
I indulge in every avenue of absence
Get smarter though
Catching crashing's easiest when it's a habit
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Great Success
03:24
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Can I build a new understanding of service while still respecting my own needs?
I stare at the steeples on my walk home and joke with the idea of becoming pious
I told you I remembered the day my dream died
Stuck to my bed the first panic attack of my life
Gave myself the night to think of why I'd even try
I want a new vocation
I need to be alone
I'm giving up on great success
I want to give you what I can
I just want to feel that I tried to be honest
There's a piece of me that left
And that's probably for the best
When I try to reason, I find "The Reasons"
To me that dream what something that
I'd just lust for and regret
When I can't live up to some shit, I made up in my head
I wanna build a skillset
I don't want to work alone
I want to share a moment
I want you to feel whole
I'm giving up on great success
And I'm quite alright with that
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3. |
Suffering
02:54
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Suffering is part of our condition
When I was younger and became despondent
I thought, will it end?
I thought, can I mend?
My suffering is a burden but I live it
So we've got to limit our time with our demons
I still trip up
Until I've had enough
I bet it feels so good to hate my guts
I feel so stressed, I just want to be stoned
So I'll cut you out, and I'll run my mouth
I know it feels so good to get worked out
I feel so stressed, I just need an outlet
I won't give you that time or attention, no more
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Swell
02:41
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I just feel like shit, I can't help it, so I'm clocking out
'Cause if I can't compete, then baby I'm nothing
No backup plan for the gig life
Taking debt scares me more than dropping out might
I just can't talk about it
Without swelling up and sounding like an asshole
Well here I go
Who am I to be dissatisfied?
Would I rather fail than die?
It's about that part you catch me in my lie
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5. |
WIIP
01:56
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What the hell am I mad at?
I've built everything you see
I just say that to feel like I could pack this up and do better
When I'm tired of flailing
I get high to stop myself
I wake up the next morning
And when the sun sets you'll find me saying
Have I fucked up?
I can't stop this now
I'll sleep this off
It'll all work out
Wins are coming but just not today
When I'm in panic I just have to breath
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6. |
Away
03:28
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Rarely say I miss you so
Perform indifference while we get stoned
The art in your apartment is finally hanging straight
We're growing
It feels so cool 'til I come to in another room and you're a world away
A budding 'stache, another man who double down to fast
And you're a world away
The corners we would catch up on
Feel indifferent but different I know
The bar is my apartment, and that's alright with me
We'll close late
I've been listening to all our favourite songs
I've been cooking brunch and getting drunk to our old shows
I've been deflecting by maxing out my To-do
I've been thinking
All and all these lessons taught can only make an impact if once you need some guidance, you feel precautions towards a loss
I miss your face but we'll get past the distancing
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Sunday
01:54
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Left your guilt in the confessional, a comfortable release
"When Jesus spoke to proud nationals he never lived in our great country"
The softball team where everyone looks like me
The hot carafe whose drink I'll never have
Sunday Rituals
Old enough to know their weight
Left your childhood in those fields, collapsed in your black shirt
Woke up in a van, whose doors were welded shut
Estranged at birth to half, enthralled by the other
The guidance that you had, their beauty, and their struggle
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Steal Your Time
03:42
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It's no harder here today
I remember being nervous until I learned you felt the same
And I tried to show restraint
I'm a four-track in the shop, and it's more than just a cleaning
But I'm not afraid, because I'm sick of eating tape
There I go, steal your time again, and you're fine with it
I can't help but to deflect
When I give up space I panic, but it's easy when you're there
You make me kind, and attentive
You're a champion for our cause, and you shine even when tested
I'll come to you when lost, and you help me find my strength
Weather seasons and our loss, but still live for what we're chasing
Got such a pretty face, when you put me in my place
I'm showing up, you give so much, we're growing, trying to find our way
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